I am thinking of changing blog/abandoning this blog or just not blog. But I don't think I will not blog because blogging and the writing and the whining has grown on me that it becomes almost impossible for me not to channel my useless energy and straying thoughts somewhere.

And honestly, I really have been kept busy (by fun) that I completely forgotten I have this thing here. And I only remember this when it's like 2 in the god damned morning and I am the only one awake in the whole house and my thoughts are racing with many different things. So now you know why I am here.

So just between you and me, I have this one person that I am genuinely mad at. Like, I am not really sure if I am mad or just obsessed on taking my revenge but either way, I always find this person at the back of my head all the time. And it annoys me silly that I just feel like ringing up this mofo and, and, urm, well you know... say shit and put down the phone.

Okay, honestly I don't know what I'll do for me to actually consider the act as revenge but I really really want to do something to this person so that this person just gets angry. Oh my god, I am a monster! Like okay no, it's not like revenge- I kill you kinda thing but its justlike revenge- you stupid mofo, I will be so much an irritant you wish you'd die.

Right, not much difference but the point is I just want to cause some degree of damage to this person because if you know me, I am that one person in the whole that just goes "fuck it all" and I don't let nothing get to me. And if this person manage to leave like an imprint on me, you know the shit is major!

I sincerely wish right that our paths crossed again in the future so that I can cause damage to this person and after that, I will just... probably just like do some nasty shit like urmmm, like you know nastay shiaat. No you don't know, neither do I.

I think I just want to win this thing. Like I always do. I am such a bitch.